Two years ago, after I finished my Masters degree and began a lifestyle of routine between home and work, I felt down. I thought all my ambition had ended because I had accomplished everything I wanted.
I thought all I have left to do now, is get better at my job, look for a raise, get married and have a family.
However, it still wasn't it for me.
I couldn't ignore the feeling of emptiness that I had, of something missing. I needed more than just the random things in life, that will eventually happen. I needed to look up for something more, in life, to achieve, for myself.
It's not a dream to have a family. Of course I want to have a family of my own, but also, to be a woman, a wife, a mother, with a career.
I did get a raise, I am good at my job, I did get married.
My husband and I are now working on the house we purchased, it needs some renovations.
After that, we plan to have children.
I think life in general is adventuress. There are always new things happening; things to work on, do and have. Therefor, there are always hopes and dreams.
I love my job. Especially to appear in courts.
Every other day I have a court hearing, and I am good at it.
I feel I am so confident and ready, to be independent.
I dream to have my own Law firm. To be the boss in a beautifully designed law firm office. To be the one who goes to all court hearings, and to have employees and lawyers that do all the work at the office.
I was happy and contented to dream. To once again have an ambition. To look forward to something and work on it.
When I was about to get married, I looked for dresses and cloth, and met dressmakers. I saw myself gathering ideas, collecting pictures, mixing and putting things together, and I wished I could make my own clothes and dresses.
Two friends of mine went to sewing classes.
I thought this is what I want too! Next to my job as a lawyer, I'll do it after noon and in the weekends, for myself.
The classes are expensive. So meanwhile, I'm keeping it as an idea, until I am sure I have the time for it.
So if you ask me about my future plans and where do I see myself in the next five years, I'd say a boss at my Law Firm. And in the next years, when I am old and too tired to run around at courts as much as today, I will be a dressmaker. A designer of my own brand. I'll name my brand Mooly :)
great things start from humble beginnings, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. you are wise, talented and awesome :) you can do it all !!! never doubt your self , simply just start and the rest will follow !!
ReplyDeleteThank you Eassa!
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