30 years old

I was thinking about birthdays. How much I love birthdays and how excited I get when it's someone’s birthday and my birthday!

This year, it’s the first time ever I feel a bit sad inside. This year I’m becoming 30 years old. 30! My twenties are over. It feels old. Serious. It makes me go back and wonder.

I feel sad because I never thought I will be 30 years old still not married and without kids. I’ve always wanted to be a great mom, young mom. To be married at 24. To be done with kids at 30. To be able to raise my kids right, spend time with them as I should, to be great at my job and career, to be a good wife. In three months I will be 30. It’s not what I planned.

On the other hand, I've gone through so much so far. My personality, my job, my studies, everything... I've done so many things to be proud of.

Tried to feel better about it but it's not getting better I'm still sad about it. But maybe it's fine, it's not supposed to be as I anticipated. 

But, I’m getting married!!!!!!

Yesterday my boyfriend proposed to me!! 

It was great. I cried. I said yes. 

That's it. 

I think I found the right man to be my husband and the father of my kids, who would love me and the family forever. I felt right since the begging and that’s right.