Third Phase PLUS

I talked before about me being in the third phase of my life.
So here is an update:


IT'S CRAZY!


By age life just gets harder and harder.


I am changing. I am put in situations that I never was in before. I see different kinds of people and different kinds of personalities. I am learning to not take things straight to the heart. I am learning to deal with problems on my own. I am put in positions where I get helpless but stronger in the same time.
I learned that no matter how hard things seem to be, it is okay, because it is as they say, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. I know that each day I am growing more and learning more. I know that I am not the same as yesterday and that each day is a blessing.
I know that it is the hardest phase I am in so far. But as I observed, This is life. It only gets harder but in the same time it is all about learning - learning to deal with it and taking the best out of every situation.


LEARN AND MOVE ON - That's my motive. 

My Baby (part 2)

After I wrote about Lucky's problem, I didn't know really what to do. I took the decision to let her go because of her behavior... But it was just talk. I couldn't do it. So what I did instead was keeping her outside and never letting her in the house again. I thought it's better to do that for now. 
But this didn't last long. I think I love her too much. I want to be with her, hold her and caress her.

Many friends came up to me preventing me from giving up on Lucky - Even those who disliked her couldn't let me do it, especially when they understood how I really feel about her. 
She is a great dog...

One of my friends suggested I take her to a specialist in dog's behavior and gave me one's number.
I called the woman for about 40-45 minutes. She was really nice. I told her everything that's going. She explained that Lucky could be acting that way because there is something that scares her so much that happened to her while she was outside. She is so scared even by thought of going outside again.

The woman asked me if there is anyone who hits Lucky. I said no. But maybe someone did when she was outside - it is something that happened to her outside. So she said I need to work on Lucky, to show her that it is okay outside and safe. She asked me to start taking Lucky out - together - play and get back inside also together. To not leave her. To show her that there is nothing scary.

She told me when Lucky hides, I should give her her favorite food - like a ham or cheese or chocolate. She said little by little she will change and be normal again. She said when Lucky gets this fear, her mind doesn't realize that it is me with her and that I won't harm her. She said she still loves me even when she growls at me. Her head stops working for seconds because the fear takes over.

When I got home that day, I took Lucky, hugged her and stared at her for a while. I thought to myself I can't give her up. I love her. I will work on her.


So there she is with me in the house, being careful with her and giving her as much attention as possible.

I refuse to believe she lost her mind.
After all, she is my cute baby :)